She reminded him of his daughter (kinda warped,huh);
She threatened him that she would tell me, work, church, etc.
I don't buy it, because I know that she didn't threaten him in the beginning, only when he started to withdraw from the A. I really want to know why it lasted so long and that he won't/can't give me the answer.
No, counseling isn't a deal breaker. It would be nice, but okay, I can live with that.
Sometimes, I wish he would just go, then I can heal. But then I feel as though my life would be so empty without him there. Confusing, huh?
As for myself, I'm moving into a new apartment - cleaner, more cheerful. I'm just trying to buy space and time to sort through all of this. My H is getting very impatient, but I feel it's just not time for me to go home. I hope I'm not making the wrong decision and I hope I'm not causing more harm. My reaction I guess if he chose to leave would depend on how he left. Just not sure.
