I guess that's it. I haven't chosen my marriage. I think I want to stay because it is the right thiing to do, but then I don't because there is so much damage to the marriage that I can't put it back together. I've got DR, I've skimmed it, not really enhaled it, but once again, for some reason, I can't find that it applies to me. I'm not sure why I think my situation is so much more traumatic than others. My H had no reason to be with this OW. She was so beneath him, the thought of anyone finding out about who his A was with, humiliates him because he would be a laughing stock. And I cannot logically reason this out. He had everything going for him and he chose to throw all away for someone so pathetic and homely. It is unbelievable.
Okay, I'll try and get back to the book DR and see if I can apply some of the tehcniques but again, my situation seems so different from everyone elses. And maybe you hit the nail on the head. This is a book of getting your marriage back together and I've not committed to that yet. I guess I need to make a decision.