Okay guys, I blew it again!!!! My H wants more than anything to reconcile. He is trying so hard to create new memories and wants to be a part of my life but I cannot get beyond this rage that I feel. Maybe I'm hopeless. Maybe the wounds are too deep. Maybe for his benefit I should let him go. I'm wearing him down and I completely had an emotional break down this past week end. I know I have all the resouces and I try and try to remember what I've learned but I cannot control this rage!!! I'm so sick, so tired, so drained, I don't think I can go on much longer. He wants me and I want him, but I cannot block all the deception, the lies, the 1 1/2 he was in this relationship from my mind. No matter how I try!!! The key is to forgive of course, but I can't seem to get there, no matter how I try, pray, etc. I can't seem to let this go. HELP, PLEASE - my marriage hangs in turmoil and it is getting beyond reconciliation.
