Thanks. Okay, let me try something else. My goal is to be HAPPY. I'm miserable right now, with or without my H. How long must I stay in this place? I know that I "choose" to be miserable, but I cannot overcome this feeling of toal disgust with my H. Each time I'm with him I feel insulted, humiliated, ashamed and disgusted. This is how I truely feel. I'm not sure these are emotions, I'm beginning to think they are facts, so now what?
