Then don't! It sounds like you need a lot of space and time right now. A separation will help you with that. Whether you feel it or not, is there any way you can present this to H as a middle step, instead of proof that you're done? Would you feel better if you looked at this as a breather, after which you'll re-evaluate what you want? You don't need the pressure right now of having to decide that it's completely over if you can avoid it.
I'm sorry that I've disappointed everyone who has tried to help me through this...
Who do you think you're disappointing? Everybody's trying to help you get what you want. You've wanted to let him back in. But if you can't and you decide you want something else, everyone will still be trying to help you.
Good luck! I hope you find a little peace today.
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