When reading the books, it creates a need for me to talk about the affair and that is the last thing that my H wants to do. As far as the 180s, I can't say that I've tried anything because I can't make myself do it. This is what is causing so much turmoil within me. I know what I should be doing but yet I won't or can't do it. Maybe I'm just being stupid to think that I can get over the affair and rebuild this marriage. Maybe the damage is so intense from my perspective that it can't be salvaged. I know this goes against the grain of DR, but maybe I'm just not strong enough. With that said, I'm beating my husband down so much that he thinks our marriage is hopeless. Any advise on what I should try? I don't want a divorce but it may be the best thing for both of us. My husband's goal is for me to be happy and I can honestly say that right now, I'm not. As a matter of fact, I'miserable.
