Interesting question. I wish I knew. I know that I cannot imagine being without him, I know that he is truly remoreful and he is trying everything he can (willing or reluctantly) to rebuild the relationship. That I admire from him, BUT, I find myself not loving him the same way I did before. This I know without a doubt and frankly, I search everyday within myself to try and figure out if I love him enough to stay. The only thing I can do right now is to be patient and enjoy our time together. I'm not ready to give up, but this is the hardest thing that I've done in my life. This decision is much harder for me that to marry him. And yes, I did a lot of soul searching, and was engaged 2-1/2 years before I finally ageed to set the wedding date. It was something I really took my time with and look where it ended. I don't want to make the same mistake and give up something that can be good and yet on the other hand, I don't want to put a lot of my time and energy into a man that I may never love the same again. What now?
