Just a little update. I've gone through the steps of forgiveness and I believe that I have forgiven my H for his infidelity. Although, I have to remind myself almost every hour to leave the pain at the foot of the cross, I'm doing better.
With that said, my H is very depressed and talks about leaving me for my sake. He thinks that it would be the best for me. He said he would always be indebted to me and that he would never be able to repay me. I've told him that he owes me nothing, but he is fighting so many deamons right now and he won't open up to me. I think he wants out of the marriage What should I read into this?