Thanks again, NY. You do have some wonderful advise.
I try to imagine me with my H and it frightens me. I really put a lot into this marriage and I'm heart broken. Can this M be saved, yes it can! My H sure wants it to but because I don't feel he is worthy of my love and trust, I won't let him try. I really believe I've finished with the anger and I have made a commitment that I have forgiven H. Now I'm ready to try and make a go of the M. I can't say that it will work because I'm not the run-of-the-mill type of person. I don't get over things easily so I'm a little scared that I will fail and I don't like to fail -- if I feel that I may not be successful in something, I usually don't engage.
My R with my H is a little better today than yesterday, and I hold on to each hour. It usually works like this for me. During working hours, I want to make the M work, as soon as we're together and having fun, I want out of the M. Is that normal also?
