Thanks Yoyo and BB - Now I don't know if I have backslid or just been truthful but......H just rang me at work, just to say Hi and see how things are going, to which I just replied very airy fairy of "Yeah fine and you" to which he replied "Oh been really busy at work and tired". He checked that he was working here tomorrow which I said yes and then there was a stifling silence so of course I had to fill it oops..... M: Have you noticed we don't seem to have much to say H: No is something wrong M: No not really, I have just given up on waiting for you, I am just doing my own thing and leaving you to do yours. H: Yeah, I guess I have noticed that M: Oh well it doesn't really matter to me whether you have noticed or not as it is what I am doing that interests me as for you I am really not bothered anymore, I have given it too much time already. H: Fair enough. M: Yes it is, I guess I have had some time to see you in a different light, you dont act the same anymore and I am not really interested in who you have become. H: Well we will find some time to talk soon. M: If you feel we must otherwise dont bother as I am not interested in hearing crap anymore. Speak to me only if you have made some sort of decision. H: Mmmm O.K. if that's what you want. M: Look I will have to speak to you some other time as I am really busy so I have to go. See ya And I hung up.... Yes I wasn't very good I suppose but I am so disappointed in him and he shows no signs of changing anything so I guess I just let my anger boil over and you know what I don't even feel that bad about it....It's like he deserves it.....If he is worried he will try and fix it in the next few days and if he doesn't well then I have made it easy for him....whatever I don't care at the moment, I can't make him react the way I want so I will be true to me in how I feel and voice it if I so choose and he can KMA and if he starts to change I will assess it then and not before. Now I better try and start a new thread as I am going to be locked out any minute I am sure....KDU
