That is so awesome Kim, I'm happy for you. I think others have made it pretty clear that there is much work yet to be done. Have you kept a journal throughout all of this? I would go back through it, really look over what you've written. Think about the things you want H to know about the way this has affected you. Think about the things you need him to tell you about the A. Think about the things you need from him going foward and the things you *think* he'll want from you. Make sure you're on the same page about his needs. All of this will be a slow process of course, but I can see where it would be frightening to bring up any of the "bad stuff" for fear that things will take a downward turn. My advice is not to give in to those fears. Face them head on. But face them slowly. Really investigate your journal and your thoughts and the person you've become. Lay out a road map for yourself to expose that new Kim to your H. Make new goals for youself, and that will help you keep on track and focused.
Good job Kim!!
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
