Hi KDU Wow you are sure sticking it out....good for you!!!! So calm, probably driving him nuts. I am now following you up that mountain I have put H on last resort or should i say after the last resort technique. It actually doesn't feel that bad...so maybe it is time for me. Don't think i would ever trust him again as he lies about EVERYTHING right down to having the flu. I was talking to a stranger (man) at bookstore friday night (in relationship section and we started up a convo and were there talking for 4 hours)Never closed down a bookstore before He asked me a few questions and one that has really stuck is: can i live my life everyday wondering if H is happy enough everyday with us and our marriage to not look for OW again. He said what if you have a disagreement and he leaves mad or upset will I worry all day long if that will make him stray???!!! Some of the things he asked have really made me think about my life for the future....Anyway sorry for the hijack got carried away. I'm glad you are having a few baby steps in a good direction again!!
I have put H on last resort or should i say after the last resort technique. It actually doesn't feel that bad...so maybe it is time for me. Don't think i would ever trust him again as he lies about EVERYTHING right down to having the flu. I was talking to a stranger (man) at bookstore friday night (in relationship section and we started up a convo and were there talking for 4 hours)Never closed down a bookstore before 
He asked me a few questions and one that has really stuck is: can i live my life everyday wondering if H is happy enough everyday with us and our marriage to not look for OW again. He said what if you have a disagreement and he leaves mad or upset will I worry all day long if that will make him stray???!!! Some of the things he asked have really made me think about my life for the future....Anyway sorry for the hijack got carried away. I'm glad you are having a few baby steps in a good direction again!!
