Thanks. I feel like I made some baby steps yesterday, but I am afraid to get hopes up. Never sure. When I got home last night the H was already home and showered and making dinner for me and the kids. Later we played some games with the kids and ended up watching tv with them until they fell asleep and then it was just us. We put the kids to bed, (he was surprised I could carry our daughter, I have been working out). At that point he made a pass at me and groped me. I was shocked! He has said no, that we cannot be intimate because it isn't right. I feel that it is ok but respect him. He then ran into the living room before he continued. I grabbed and hugged him and told him that it was ok, and that I wanted to tell him I am not the enemy and I don't feel that he is. He said he didn't. I said I didn't know what advice he was getting for others but that I felt everything we have is 50% mine and 50% his, including the kids and I wanted him to know that and that I would never speak of it again. He seemed relieved and told me to stop crying. I cry alot. After he left I called him and thanked him. He said for what and I said anything and everything, but for making me feel wanted again. He asked if I was upset because I was crying again and I said no, I was ok, really. Not sure what today will bring but I can feel that my anxiety is at least 1/2 of what it has been lately.


Me 43 H 44 S-13 D-9
Separated 90 days 6/28/05
H Says he is done-10/2/06-day after 18th anniv
Moved out 10/2/07-to father's house-day after 19th wedding anniv-GF now
H Filed for D 7/08