Life is not hard, we just to make it that way. It does get easier, but it takes months, not days; you are still in the infancy of the R trouble. Still wondering what and why and how, how can you possibly go on and survive? And guess, you will.
SLOWLY. Time and patience (very difficult I know) are the only keys you have on your side. And it is only about controlling your actions and reactions and life. You cannot do this for him, but for you.
Know we have all been through this and are still going through.
