Not glad to see you in your sitch but glad you posted. Have you read DR yet? If not, pick it up today at a local bookstore and read it. It'll tell you to stop with this pursuit stuff, and give H space and time.
You can deal w/ all this, by focusing on yourself and getting busy with your own improvements. Reflect on that a bit and set up some shortterm goals for yourself and for your R, then post them here.
