I spoke to DD2 on the phone this evening and she asked how I was and told me about this new outfit that DD4 has got, and then she mentioned Nan (my mother) which didn't go down too well. I pretended to be interested but my stress levels were going through the ceiling at the mention of her.
Andy took the phone and told me he'd be at mine in half an hour.
I went to lie down before he arrived and had a bit of a cry, thinking about my mother, the whole DB'ing sitch, the OW2 and the IVF drugs I have to start on Thursday which terrifies me. I was feeling a bit overwhelmed.
A few minutes before he arrived, I got up and dabbed my eyes so he wouldn't know I'd been crying. I remembered this is one of the reasons why I don't speak to my kids on the phone. They always upset me with too much information
Anyway, I let him and DD4 in, hoping that he wouldn't notice I was upset. I was standing in the doorway and let him put DD4 down, assuming he would then leave, but he walked through to my living room again.
He commented that my computer was fixed. So I told him about the technician coming round to mend it today and we talked about the fault and how I have to get a new keyboard before I can return his laptop.
I told him about my appointment time at the IVF clinic on Thursday and he said he'd get DD4 on Thursday morning for me and have her until Friday morning. I agreed because I am worried I might get side-effects after the jab and might need time to recover.
We talked a bit about the egg donation process and I joked that I had HCG in my fridge (the pregnancy hormone). There's butter, cheese, mineral water, milk etc etc and HCG! Just what you'd expect to find in the fridge!
He asked why I have to have the pregnancy hormone. I said it's to stop me having a period so they can get my eggs and they aren't lost, so they shut down my ovulation, stop my period and harvest the eggs that are left sitting in the ovaries. To do that they have to trick my body into thinking it's pregnant.
I told him I hope I don't get fake morning sickness
DD2 came in and X told her to go back and wait in the car I wanted to ask her to stay and to say to him, come on, lighten up, but I didn't want to contradict him in front of her, so I let it be.
Then DD3 came in too.
X commented on my dress (knitted rainbow stripes) and said I was looking 'very colourful' today. I told him it was old and I'm surprised he's not seen it before. He said he hadn't. I told him I have a matching rainbow coloured jumper for when the weather gets colder.
He smiled and said 'I thought you would have, that's just like you, really colourful.' - so I took that as a compliment
We sat down on the sofa and he cuddled DD4 and told me that she'd been playing in his garden with a few friends and that he took her to art class this morning. I told him that we were going to a craft activity day tomorrow and making stuff out of sea shells.
DD2 came over and showed me her new jacket - it's really formal, pink with a corsage on it. I think my mother bought it for her. I told her all she needed now was a pair of suit trousers! She showed me the roses on her vest as well. She looked really smart and she knew it.
She kissed me and I gave her a hug.
X went to the bathroom and while he was sat there, shouted through the door 'Hey, you've got new shower curtains!' I've had them for months and he's only just noticed! I told him they were there before, I've had them ages and I just got sick of staring at these white plastic curtains every time I walked into the bathroom so I bought these multi-coloured ones with fishes all over them.
After that they left and X was waving at DD4 and hiding around the hedge, playing peepo with her. DD1 had refused to come in and was moaning at him about why he takes so long so I heard him say to her 'For goodness sake, DD1, I was talking to your mother!'
I shouted goodbye at everyone and waved.
It was only spoilt by DD4 mentioning that OW2 had been round to his place and I just snapped at her that I didn't want to talk about it.
Then I felt really angry, thinking of her going round there.
I need a bit of help from fellow DB'ers in how not to mention her, how not to shout at him etc etc next time he comes round, which will be Thursday morning. I really feel like having a go at him but my rational self says no.
