My drugs arrived this morning. I nearly passed out, there are SO MANY needles - like about 30 or more, probably more - ugh!
There's hydrochloric acid and polyscorbate 20 in the drugs, lovely! I have written an email to the clinic to ask various questions like can you get anaphylactic shock from the jabs and have there been any reports of hypotonic episodes afterwards?
Also, the hormone prolactin is a contraindication to the injections and I have only just stopped breast feeding Alicia and still produce breast milk and therefore prolactin, so I am querying whether I am contraindicated.
Oooh, it's scary - I start the accelerated IVF process next Thursday and the manual for how to self-inject was about as easy to understand as a manual for open heart surgery. Plus I have to get rid of the air before I inject or I could kill myself - can you imagine if I didn't do it right?
I've taken a look at one of the needles and the dr said it was small, but it looks HUGE to me. I've got to somehow get up the nerve to plunge that needle into my stomach and even worse, take it out again (which I seem to remember hurts more), and then the manual said to dab with cotton wool to prevent bleeding, UGH.
To make matters worse, I've got to do this every flippin' day for about 3 weeks and there are like 3 different sorts of drugs, one which I have put in the fridge because you have to keep it cold (they arrived in an ice box) and then there are 2 other sorts which are in my bathroom cabinet.
Then there's the nausea and vomiting side effects which the nice Mr. Doc forgot to tell me about, and I get sick easily so I am hoping it doesn't mean I am sick for 3 weeks.
I am half toying with the idea of asking Andy to jab me just so I don't have to, but you know, given how he is a lot of the time, I reckon he'd do it hard on purpose
I tell you what, I hope these infertile women appreciate what I am going through for them!
Oh, one bit of good news today. I was looking at my star sign in my favourite women's mag and it said 'It's time to get the lingerie out , you're about to meet someone who is dying to take it off, with their teeth.'
Of course I don't believe any of it, because then all the Taurean women in the world would be getting their lingerie out! but I can dream
Re Jo How's it going with BB? Mostly same ups and downs.
I said I was trying to make things better. She thinks I am passive agressive (PA). I said I am tired of trying to convince her that I am not PA. I just see things differently than she does. Then I said if she want to see things her way there is nothing I can do to change her mind and I am about through trying to convince her other wise.
I said I am not being PA just not going to say many things more than once. Also said if I irritate her I will keep my distance.
Sherwood forest? I used to watch a series about Robin Hood on Tv from about 1955 through 1958. Are TV movies about the legendary Shewood Forest group popular on TV? Have you seen anything from the 1950/1960's?
It's good to see your D had fun in Sherwood forest.
it's just everytime you post, my darling husband does something else to upset me Yes, you post all of the garbage that goes on. Too bad he has to be so unkind.
I understand you not wanting to have contact with OW1 and OW2. Too bad Andy does not get it. Some guys just don't make the connection that women don't like to feel like being friends with OW, no matter how bad the old M relationship is. On some threads the W calls the OW, "maggot". maggot picture Such hate.
Sorry to hear things are still bad with BB. Maybe it's some sort of late MLC she's going through and she will just be irrational anyway.
Re Sherwood Forest, I think the legendary films are more popular with children, although I did like 'Robin Hood, Prince of Thieves' (early 1990's) - if there were many men like Kevin Kostner wondering around Sherwood Forest, I think I'd move there!
Re OW2 - yes, I hate her, completely utterly, more than I can tell you, and if she dared turn up at my door, I'd spit in her face, and I mean that. What makes matters worse is that we had a relatively good marriage and even afterwards, if we're not fighting over the children, we get on quite well considering the circumstances. The bond is still there and that makes me want to peel the skin from her bones
I get comfort out of the fact that he doesn't love her (he went to her a couple of weeks after me, so re-bound - his psychological need to be with a woman), certainly his love poem to her entitled 'shite' is proof enough of that!
Then he has admitted he loves me (even since OW2) and what with the hand holding and his incessent talk about sex, I know that pretty soon this woman will be toast. She's just feeding his physical need because I'm not. I find it pretty sad that he is unable to go without sex.
I think people are better human beings if they can choose and they don't mind whether they have it either way, then it becomes something you do because you love that person and not just because you haven't got off for x number of weeks.
I'm going back to ice queen routine, hopefully, tomorrow when I see him.
Andy just phoned me, saying he's ill and can't have DD4 tomorrow. He asked if he could have her Sunday till Tuesday instead.
I phoned back and said no, because we have plans for the day on Tuesday (it's a craft activity day at the local church). So he asked if he could have her Sunday till Monday evening.
I said yes. I have to wait in all day Monday for the computer technician to fix my computer.
I asked him what the matter was and he said he has a stomach bug and he was varnishing that sofa frame I let him have and the fumes got to him.
I told him to get well soon and he said he'd call me tomorrow to let me know whether he's got any worse or not.
Well, Gabe, he carried on sending me more texts about how he is going to watch a film tonight and what dvd's have I got, so I listed a few of the dvd's I own.
Hey, do you like the colour pale green? I've got this pale green 100% silk dress he's never seen that has white polka dots on it (sleeveless) - I thought I'd wear that and look absolutely gorgeous except I am not sure if green suits me - have never worn it yet as didn't have the guts.
I want to be this desirable female that he can't have, sort of attractive but totally unavailable (from a physical point of view), since physical touch is his thing, I will be doing my damnest not to.
