My drugs arrived this morning. I nearly passed out, there are SO MANY needles - like about 30 or more, probably more - ugh!

There's hydrochloric acid and polyscorbate 20 in the drugs, lovely! I have written an email to the clinic to ask various questions like can you get anaphylactic shock from the jabs and have there been any reports of hypotonic episodes afterwards?

Also, the hormone prolactin is a contraindication to the injections and I have only just stopped breast feeding Alicia and still produce breast milk and therefore prolactin, so I am querying whether I am contraindicated.

Oooh, it's scary - I start the accelerated IVF process next Thursday and the manual for how to self-inject was about as easy to understand as a manual for open heart surgery. Plus I have to get rid of the air before I inject or I could kill myself - can you imagine if I didn't do it right?

I've taken a look at one of the needles and the dr said it was small, but it looks HUGE to me. I've got to somehow get up the nerve to plunge that needle into my stomach and even worse, take it out again (which I seem to remember hurts more), and then the manual said to dab with cotton wool to prevent bleeding, UGH.

To make matters worse, I've got to do this every flippin' day for about 3 weeks and there are like 3 different sorts of drugs, one which I have put in the fridge because you have to keep it cold (they arrived in an ice box) and then there are 2 other sorts which are in my bathroom cabinet.

Then there's the nausea and vomiting side effects which the nice Mr. Doc forgot to tell me about, and I get sick easily so I am hoping it doesn't mean I am sick for 3 weeks.

I am half toying with the idea of asking Andy to jab me just so I don't have to, but you know, given how he is a lot of the time, I reckon he'd do it hard on purpose

I tell you what, I hope these infertile women appreciate what I am going through for them!

Oh, one bit of good news today. I was looking at my star sign in my favourite women's mag and it said 'It's time to get the lingerie out , you're about to meet someone who is dying to take it off, with their teeth.'

Of course I don't believe any of it, because then all the Taurean women in the world would be getting their lingerie out! but I can dream