I've been pretty down lately, esp. knowing he is visiting his wench this weekend, and when he invited me to DD2's birthday that made me feel really sad because of OW 1 and 2 being there, and loads of home ed people who probably hate me.
It's worse because as well as it being DD2's birthday, it will also be EX-OW's birthday, as they share the same date of birth.
When he invited me, I knew it was EX-OW's 47th party as well as my DD's 8th - UGH!!!!!!! As far as I can see, if she doesn't move, I will never see another one of DD2's birthdays, as it will always be HER day and he won't separate the two.
It's crazy, her bf lives there. I don't know why she doesn't leave. The whole sitch is weird.
I criticized X for it the other day and he just said it was great because it's like 'living on a commune' - ugh, that's not my idea of stability.
Anyway, I felt awful today knowing he was with OW2 and thankful I had other plans. Then there's that kiss he sent me which has left me so confused.
I basically don't have a clue what's going on anymore and I feel as if I am standing in the middle of a crowded room, screaming my lungs out and no one notices me.
But never mind, I'll get on with my GAL update on a different post.
