Thank you all....you brought tears to my eyes. It doesnt look like things are getting any better. H is still out of town for work but they changed hotels (supposedly)and he will not let me know where he is staying. He took the laptop so I cant get online to communicate with all of you...only at work right now. H is still being an a##. I had to take Hannah to Urgent care yesterday...tried to call H but wasnt answering...so I called his hotel and thats how I found out he was checked out. It hurts to have him treat me like this. He said that sometimes he want to be married and sometimes he doesnt...this kills me...next Wednesday should be my three year anniversary but his affair has been going on for two years last month. He has been really rude to me and I hate it. I dont know what to do anymore. I want the marriage to work so badly that I try to take this form of abuse but at the same time I dont deserve it. Why doesn't he love someone that is so good to him...I am feeling sorry for myself. I want to be able to let him go but I dont want to feel like a failure...please...I just dont know what to do. I know he is playing games. Is this girl(OW25) and her three kids more important then our daughter and my stepson and thier stabality. Yikes...I am a little out of control. I am scared and hurt....Sorry...just rambling!
