Don't get down on yourself. Like KDU says, we all have our weak times. We are human. Don't feel bad about it. Think about how great D is and how wonderful it is to enjoy her growing up. Don't allow what H is doing to control your actions. (I know, easier said than done!). You cannot control him. You can control YOU! So go do something wonderful and special for YOU! You deserve it!
WCB
God grant me the serenity,
to accept the things I cannot change,
To change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
- Reinhold Niebuhr
