Thanks everyone for your input....it really helps me out a lot. I gave up a little on this board because I sometimes feel like I might not be strong enough for all of you. I am at a real weak time in my life. I want so desperately to have my H love me and treat me like he should...but I do realize that I can't control his efforts...I can only control my own. I just want to be loved and feel it....lol!
H is gone away on a business trip until Friday. He is only about 2 1/2 hours away..but has a hotel out there because they will be doing construction through Friday. I hope that he is strong enough not to have OW meet him there and that is isnt on the phone constantly with her. I just get really bummed out. When we said bye this morning he said that he loved me and to have a good week...but when we spoke on the phone he was a cocky a##. He would not say I love you...which is okay but he also said a statement like...well I guess we will see if I miss you. After all that we have been through...I feel like I deserve better then that. He is nice and loving one moment then a complete a## the next moment. I just dont understand it.
I am trying to stay strong and get through my days with the happiness of my daughter...she is so freakin cute...lol! I didnt want all of you to be disappointed that I have been weak lately....but thank you for thinking about me.
