Just felt like venting... I did a big no-no! Since H was acting weird I decided to check his phone (I hate being a spy)...well, well, well...H had text message Melinda and in the message he said something like this... "Hi my baby girl. I love you and miss you. I can't wait until the day that I can spend every morning, noon, and night with you." It said a little more but by the time I read that I was so sad and disgusted that I dont remember anymore. I woke him up and confronted him....he said that he shouldnt have done it...that he was having a hard day and that he was sorry. Then by the time I got to work...things were all my fault..I shouldnt be a spy. I knew that he would turn things around...I told him that I dont deserve this and I am too good of a person to have this keep happening to. I pray that nobody has to feel like this. H left and went to the drag races tonight....(Guess What) it is 5 minutes away from Melinda(OW) house. I am so fed up and tired. Then we said to start a clean slate and try to move forward. I dont think that I will Be able to do that.....it has happened to many times. I am worried about mine and Hannah's(D1) future. I want us to be treated great and loved. We deserve it.
