H and I did get in a big confrontation because OW keeps calling me. I didnt mean to answer the phone....I thought it was my grandpa. It made everything bad. H said that he is sick of all this crap and that he doesnt love me and doesnt want to be married anymore. He feels forced into things. Then his entire family came over for a bbq an hour later and we played the happy game. I received a picture of H and OW together....it made me so sad. I was doing good again. I guess it would help if H seemed like he was remorseful at all. Instead he wants everything to be forgotten but still she calls. It hurts I just want a happy life and family. I am willing to forgive completely but at the same time feel that it should really be over. I explained my point of view and he said that this is just going to bring him closer to OW and that he knows he can have her anytime. Words hurt. Now, we play like things are okay but I am still so hurt from the words that he has said. I can feel a little distance but dont know what to do about it. I feel like if he can blame me for the wrong it makes him feel better and then he has a real reason to hate me. I love my H and want us to be together. What to do now...I dont know. Example: Last night was fine we got along. Then this morning he said bye and just walked out. Maybe this is one of those days that he doesnt want me and isnt happy....but last night was nice then after a restful sleep he is yuck!
So Confused! I know what you are thinking! Why is she doing this. I dont want to feel like a failure. My mom said that this would never work. I want it to work. I want my marriage forever. I think Hannah deserves to have a daddy at home so she doenst have to wonder where he is. Any thoughts...Please
