Well...I am alive and my surgery went as good as to be expected.
I have decided that when life has to deal with me...H gets an attitude. Of course we are in the arguing mode again. I dont know what happens to him. I am not blaming myself this time for his mood swings....I had surgery and later that day I drove to pick up things that I needed...there was no other offer of help. I guess there is no time for me to relax. I am not suppose to pick up anything over 15 pounds but I havent had really any help from H with Hannah. I really just want to get along but if this mood swing has anything to do with Melinda(OW) then I am not willing to fight anymore. If my H's love can come and go so quickly...then I am sick of holding everything in trying to always act happy to keep the love...its not fair. I thought things were getting better but apparently not. I do still love him but when I went to the car because he didnt say goodbye this morning and wanted to make sure that he signed a paper...he drove off with me on the driver side standing in the street. I know I will get over this but I am just hurt with everything that I have going on right now. As always....trying to stay happy. I did call him this morning but no answer...I am hurt but at the same time tired of everything. Yikes! What to do next!
