Today is a new day but I wanted to get some advise on my stitch. Yesterday I spoke to someone from my church reagrding my marriage....of course their main focus is keeping it together and forgiveness. This part confuses me because of everything that has gone on between us...I dont know if that is possible. Should I feel guilt for being uncertain at this moment.
Yesterday after work I got home and Albert(H) was there. He was doing some stuff/ getting some stuff for work in the garage. Devin(stepson 9) was there with me and he is so wonderful. I spoke to Albert for a little bit and he was looking a little frusterated. He told me that he just got off of the phone with Melinda(OW) and that she is really upset because he told her that he will not be returning her calls, text messages or communicating with her at all. He told her that he cant be a liar and a cheat anymore.(WTF???) I just listened to him. Then he said that he still doesnt believe me that she has called me...this made me upset but I kept my cool....I know the truth. He said that he doesnt want to hear that she calls me or communicates with me anymore...because these are games that I am playing. That is bull s*it! So he said lets give it a month and see how it works between us. (one month to fix a two year problem)(WTF) I guess that I am suppose to be the one there for him while he is going through withdrawls (supposedly) I left and got my nails and feet done...my mom watche Hannah for me last night. Today I get my hair done...Yeah! The smart part of me wonders why he still lies about the hotel...why if he didnt want to be with her in the long run then why is he so hurt! Is he not remembering how I have been feeling for years. He was there with Devin when I got home and he seems depressed and then when I spoke to him briefly about Deving this morning he seemed down and frusterated. What am I suppose to do in this case....Work on our marriage for one month...and be a support system for him while he is down...this makes no sense. I dont even know what is going on. Has he really stopped seeing her....she only called and text messaged him last night...and then he had the nerve to ask me if I looked at his phone. (I dont want to do that)Am I suppose to make a go out of this....am I just the doormat for a month. How can we try to work on a marriage for a moth if he is going to be depressed over another woman. I am sorry but I did say one thing mean. When he told me that she was sad I said "Thats what happens when people get involved with married people...serves her right...she has done this to me for years."
