Hello everyone! I did have to get away....thank you all for being so supportive to me. I feel like a mess but I know that things will get better. There are a few things that keep running through my mind because of all that has happened....(just need to journel them)
H said that I should have noticed that he F*cks me and never makes love to me. (I was thinking that wow maybe I liked it better that way(I am being a smart a^^)
When H ripped my jean off my bottom he asked me to go and cover up because it was making him sick.
Told me that OW has wonderful body.
Told me that he felt forced to come home.
He hates me more then he has ever hated anyone(sounds like a teenage fight)
I am figuring out that he has problems in his head...more then I thought before. How can a man blame someone as great as me for all of these problems?
He had the affair He caused the heartbreak and "drama" He was rough with his arguing He doesn't try to fix things or show actions...his words are all lies
Sounds like I am being harsh but it helps vent my thoughts!
I have decided this about me... I am a great mom I am cute(not beautiful or drop dead georgeous but cute) I have a great personality I am a great stepmom(DMF you are great too) I am not losing out here..he is!
Thanks for letting me do that....in case I need to look back at it another day!
So...I am a little bruised up....I have a knot on my forehead...and I am sore...but I am alive and have been able to enjoy a beautiful day with Hannah. I thought about you all today and besides hoping that you are all well...I wanted to say thank you again. Hope you all have a great Saturday night!
