I dont know what happened last night. H phone was blinking and I said something to him about it like "Your phone is blinking." This started world War III. At first it was calm and he said that she calls hm and texts him...then he admitted to talking and responding and still telling her that he loves her. H told me that he hates being home and that he feels forced to be there and he tells OW that too! Somehow this ended up leading into a physical brawl with us...he hates getting caught. THen he tells me how fat I am...the sad thing is that I am so worried about Hannah...she was screaming crying. I have a huge bump on my forehead I am so sore and I have some brusing on my arm. Now H says that I shouldnt have started anything. He says its my fault...maybe it is. I am just sick of being lied to. He packed up things and I am sure off to OW house. He said that he hates me and that he wishes that I would drive off a cliff. He said that he wants custody of Hannah and alimony from me. I cant sleep all night long...I look awful today. I apologized to him for everything and he says that he hates me more than anything in the world. We will never have anything again. I am starting to think that I am crazy...because after all of this I still love him...I just want to be loved!
