Okay I am really trying to deal with this all. This stitch is weird. H went to take Devin back to his mom's house last night and was gone for two and a half hours...he said that he drove around to think. He then said that he wants to work on the M but at the same time he wants to move forward and not have things thrown in his face.(Hello...I havent done that...I am trying to be supportive and its hard) H had to leave at 330am for work and I spoke to him at about 5am and he sounded bummed. H said he was having another bad day(he probably had a lot of time to think on his long drive)I try to be the supportive friend and let him know that we can work through this....but when I say it I really dont feel it in my heart. I was willing to work like this along time ago but in my heart I feel that we were separated so that he can find himself again and now he is going through all of the emotions. H got in the shower this morning and his phone was right next to the bed...I was tempted to look to see how long he talked to her during his drive to drop off stepson but then I told myself...Why???? so it can make me miserable.....I married to love not to be a detective. I dont want to wonder all of the time and worry....my doctor said that my body is so stressed out that my blood levels are crazy....Yikes!
My whole point is... am I doing this supportive friend thing right? Should I be doing it? Can we get through this? Is it worth all of this?
I want to be loved for who I am. I want to be a supportive W but feel the emotions back. I want to be happy. I want affirmation and to hear the words "ILY".
I am not a nut case...I just need to know if I am doing things correctly in order to move forward and be happy.
Has anyone had a phone consultation? Was it worth it?
