darn it! I just hate all this stupid luck I keep having!

-----bad news> skip if you wish, I'm just venting!

I was turned down for the position that I recently interviewed for. Something about my 'impressive qualifications' didn't quite fill their needs at this time.

Went to see my dd's for their bday yesterday and took them for dinner. The whole thing hit me as being too different. It's not the way we used to have bday's, all those stupid memories of bday's gone past keep popping into my head. Is there any way to get rid of them!?

Then on the way home, my car wobbled so bad I got off the e-way and took the backroads. I've noticed this b4, but it seems worse since having the flat a month ago. I have a feeling that the upper tie rod ends are shot, even tho ex told me during div they were fine.

Life is definitely trying to put me in a sour mood. But that isn't going to stop me!

-------good news! read if you dare!

I forced the smile on my face this morning, got around and did some cleaning that I keep putting off. (sorting out things from years past) Only spent a few minutes at it but that was enough to get a sense of accomplishment going!

S9 has been in a seriously good mood lately! I'm really surprised at this, as I started a new dietary supplement and we usually go through a bad spell as things take effect. He loved having dinner w/his sisters last nite, even tho crowds are sometimes too much on him. Even spoke their names when we said g'bye! This morning we wrestled together and I had eye contact and his attention for a good twenty minutes! He has had the giggles most of the afternoon, it's wonderful!!

A temp service called me yesterday while we were out and I went to apply w/them today. They have a position that is perfect for me, a bit closer than the previous one, and they are moving fast on getting me in! Contract is for 9 months and may go direct. I am excited again and hoping to land this one.

Now this is what has got me from sinking into despair! Funny - this was yesterday's horoscope, but it really is sort of my goal in life now, and gets hold of the basic db attitude!

Mulling over your past decisions and contemplating what might have been is guaranteed to make you feel crazy – so don’t do it, no matter what. Push aside all might-have-beens and concentrate on the here and now; you’ll find that people will sense the change in your energy and become much more receptive to your thoughts and ideas. Remember to keep that perspective as you go throughout your day – and beyond.