Ready to 'move on' today!! Actually I am working seriously on the illusion of moving on!!! Acting 'as if' I am moving on, etc, etc!!!!
I've tried being just a friend and listening but all ex does is bring my pma down. I don't need anymore depression right now and he can go do that w/someone else. In fact, I heard that he's unloading on his other ex already.
I have a new opportunity in Indiana, backtracking and finding out how well I did w/the one last week (hope I'm not too late) and an interview close to home soon. I am hesitant over it, since I don't have all the skills they are looking for, but I'm getting more excited over not having to move. Funny thing, haven't bumped into anyone I know all summer and then yesterday s9 and I ran into two of his teachers wanting to know if he will be back in the fall???!! Maybe this job close by is fate!!!
Speaking of fates, all I've been dreaming about lately is ex chasing after me or coming home to us!!?? This is probably since I have been trying to convince myself over and over all day long that I am 'done'! My subconscious is refusing to let him go.
I have been the WAS 2x before, during his PA 6 yrs ago, and then his EA 2 yrs ago. We worked out a resolution for the PA, but the EA episode was never resolved. He still claims nothing happened! ok. I am walking away now unless I see a reason he wants to work on anything. No more looking for baby steps; he will have to make a giant leap in my direction! I am leary of everything he does now!! What a turn of events!!
