My goals from a couple of weeks ago haven't changed much, only need to add a couple more.
1. Continue w/job search and getting back on track w/career goals. 2. Continue w/toning regimen and my appearance. 3. Work on communication techniques. 4. Keep PMA up! 5. Do what works w/Ex! 6. Keep growing intellectually, spiritually and emotionally!
#7 Consciously let ex go and start moving on. That sounds like its not really w/the game plan; but my subconscious is hanging on to him too tightly, so if I really work at letting him go and start going my own way.....who knows!?? At least then I might remember not to start any R talks.
#8 Go back home! this goal is really eating at me. I've always said that I shouldn't move anywhere w/o a job; but yet I always do!! Right now I don't have a job here. And I have no family support, but they aren't supportive of me moving back there either
If I tell anyone that at least there could be visitation; no one expects ex to exercise it!! At least I wouldn't be the one to blame by being so far away.
A lot of friends and family think I'm just moving there to get him back; I don't know, I may see him in reality and not want him anymore, so I want to move back to work on getting over him. (does that make sense?)
The boys would have all their friends and activities back in their lives; I would have some long time friends to get back in touch w/. I could also visit family there more frequently.
I guess I don't really know what is keeping me here anymore; other than the fear of losing him when I get back. But I've already lost him, right?? So, then, what is keeping me from moving back?
