Well, last night the party was cancelled b/c no one came, however my girl friend and I went out dancing and had a blast! I didn't get home until 3am! Latest I've been out in a LONNNNNNG time..I had a great time dancing and feeling attractive again. It's been a while. I know that H had tried to show me that in our M, but sometimes they do it out of duty, u know? Anyway, today was our anniversary, I went out w/ my friend Liz, and then went to pick up my S at his Uncle's. (last min decision to stay over so I could go out and have fun). H called while i was there and asked where I was b/c he was waiting at the house to get the stuff for the car we are selling (this was on VM). I called back, told him where i was, and he said well, I am not waiting. To my surprise, he was still here, and in the house getting stuff for the car when I got home. It was a bit awkward at first and then we had a talk, and I told him we should make love b/c it was our anniv. and that he and I hardly did it on our Anniv, cuz we are usually at my parent's on vacation. So we did...it was really great, and I think he connected more w/ me today that way than we had before. But then, he said he was going to break free...let go of us. I acted like it didn't matter, but then I got upset...and told him why. We had a long discussion, and right now my instinct tells me it was all supposed to happen...i am following my intuition, and doing what I should be in terms of DBing..for the most part, and I'm thinking it might be working. He says tho that he talked to OW's sister over the W/e when they were visiting her parents, and sister said OW has it bad for him..that she's never felt like this about anyone before..so he did talk to me about her, and I listened and just verified and gave some views, but remarked again that I am not him....So now what????
