Some 180s for me...hmmm...let's see. Well, overall, both my H and I are communicating ona much better lvl than we did bfore the OW. I am trying new things sexually with him that I never thought to try before, because he had been complaining things were BORING with me in the bedroom bfore OW came along. Apparently that is working cuz he keeps coming back for more loL!:) Uhm. I am doing a fairly good job of not being negative anymore about the sitch, and looking at it as hey, we are still married but he's just living with a friend for a while (Even tho friend is OW and they probably have sex every now and then) I am virtuous and will continue to keep myself as such b/c H is the only man I've ever been with (even tho in the past I have thought about/ gotten into sitch's where I've had online sex or emotional A's). My H is the true love of my life and no physical attraction to any other M will drive me into cheating on H (after all we are still married and I am a better person to not stoop to his and the OW's level). K so maybe that's not a 180??? But it's something I want to hold true to myself. I dyed my hair a slightly brighter color and am planning on getting a loose perm to add body to my hair. Starting to do things OMO with my S12. Go to the Lake, go to the mall during the weekdays etc..stuff I didn't do OMO when H was in house..or if I did, not during weekdays. BIG 180 that seems to be driving him crazy. I am actually getting along with my bro in law and his wife! That is a HUGE step for me b/c I always compared his bro to mine (they are same age) and felt he was not as good as/decent as my brother *they are complete opposites of one another*. Bro in laws been in trouble in past but has proven himself to be a good dad and a loving hubby even if he is a bit crazy in the head LOL!:) But he and sis in law have been very helpful and supportive in all this. They are mostly concerned about my S12. So I let him hang out there more and H was shocked about that. Uhm. I will be auditioning for a part in a play soon... Having a party the day before my anniv..*which is coming up in a few weeks* It's a temporary party *planning it in case H doesn't come home by then*. H checks my emaill acct. I have access to his, I haven't checked his since last T b/c the email from his OW made me a bit upset *only b/c I feel like she's falling in love with him and if he's just stringing her along, that's not fair to her oh and i feel she's manipulating him and trying her best to hold on to him* Must be a woman thing.LOL! Another BIG thing: S and I went to see fireworks on Sat, and H and OW came along *met us there* and i acted like she was nothing more than a person just hanging with us. didn't make direct conversation w/ her but chatted indirectly, and basically bit my tongue when the urge came to say give himm back to me u $@&^$ #@&$^! LOL! BIG step for me! Felt like we were a family and she was just there to hang out. Think I made her feel uncomfortable, but not him..YAY FOR ME!:) Let me know resp to any of these. There are more but I want to try to get some sleep before I have to work in five hrs!
