WAH working on R, what now?

[Pipeliners_wife]

Thanks so much Steve. Your in my thoughts all the time. I know at some point I have to thank him for coming back, and in some ways I have already. I'm hoping once this baby is born I'll be able to thank him for his hard work. I see the changes he has done too, so Its not all me. When the time is right I will.

Every day is still hard work. The other night some 19 year old girl that was on his last job was calling him at 1 am asking him to come to some keg party. I know she's young, and stupid, and knows we're married, but doesn't know what that means. Well the convo bothered me, but not as much as what happened next. At 2:30 she decided to text him, being all drunk and stupid, saying how much she wants him. Well that just brought back a huge amount of emotions. It made me cry, the first time in months. Of course my H was sorta proud of himself knowing some 19 year old was thinking about him while she's drunk, me on the other hand didn't think it was funny. So words of insecurity where said, and we went to bed cranky with each other. The next morning, I woke up to kisses and a back rub.

I know I'm silly to be worried, but I will always be on guard looking for little evidence of another OW. I see how the pain that my H has caused me, bothers him, yet he will never say sorry. He's still saying that the A wasn't a big deal because it happened after we broke up, but I know him better than that. ITs a cover up so he doesn't let his muncho guard down.

Each day is a day to learn from.

As for this baby, I have another month to go, but have started the dilation process, and I think I'm closer to having this baby later this week, maybe sometime next week. I am so tired of not being able to reach down!.!. I feel huge. I so long for my own body back! I'll eamil pictures when it does happen.