WAH working on R, what now?

[Pipeliners_wife]

So here's an update for those that are wanting to read about something positive....

H has been taken by someone other than aliens. A few months ago he was cold, and lost. Today the complete opposite. H is so different and in every positive way posssible. At one point H didn't want to be married, today everynight he thanks me for marring him. Is going out of his way to do nice things for me like a back rub, or hugs, whatever. Telling me how important we are to him, that he'd be so lost with out us. Planning the future with us in it. Before it was more about him. Before he worked so he could spend the money on his truck and his toys. Today he works so we can do FAMILY holidays and to buy the family stuff. Holidays are about the kids, not about him drinking. We just bought a trailer a few weeks ago and so D2 and I have been travling to him while he works. Everynight we are with him, he makes supper.... Something new. And everynight I hear "why didn't we buy a trailer sooner". He's talking about his feelings more and telling me stuff about work. Before I was in the dark. Today he talks about my roll in the company, telling me to make decisions, before he insited I wasn't part of the company although its on paper. He talks about his excitment for this unborn baby. A few months ago it was all a big mistake. After work if he's cranky, I see the effort he's putting in to be in a good mood. I see through his eyes that he's pure at heart. Something I never saw before. I feel so giddy over him, like my dream will end, yet I know I'm not dreaming. Others have seen the changes both of us are making.

I knew him having this affair would somehow, someway bring out the best in both of us, and it has. In some twisted form, I am so happy that it happened. It was a blessing. I know there are different stages to marriage. And today I feel better than I did when we where first married, yet we're not in the first stages of love. We are happy and I can truely say that H is as well.

Looking back a few months before my world crashed, I should have seen the signs. I was insecure over our M. I was writing in my journal about the rocky R we where having. I remember feeling lost, not having a purpose in life. Not feeling like a mother or a wife, just a female with a job. Today for the first time I feel like a mother and a wife. I feel like I have my own family to care for and they are the most important people in my life. I really have learnt that NO ONE can ever take another human for granted.

I can't tell you enough how happy I am to have been apart of divorce busting. I believe that there was a reason I was at the library that day and found a copy of the book, and to have found this site and all those who have been supporting me.

All I can say for those losing hope.... Hold on!!! Its a rollercoaster ride from hell, but in the long run, we all turn out better than we where before. Hold onto your blessings.

PLW