I don't think my M will live to hear those words.... ONLY a kiss....
My internet connection at home has been down because I got the bright idea to have my hard drive slicked so that I could get rid of all the old junk on my computer and perhaps bring up the speed a little. But I forgot to get my pictures off of it first and now I am heartbroken. There were pics of my C-section, my babies at all different stages. I don't know how it didn't occur to me to save them first.......so now my computer is at the "doctor" trying to recover them. It is so hard in the midst of all of this when I already tremble at the idea of being less of a part of my childrens' lives in the future to think that I have also lost a piece of our past....I'm devastated. Keep your fingers crossed for me!! It has been nice to have some time with my kids.....I'm loving the fact that S4 comes to cuddle with me on the couch and tells me stories...last night we laughed so hard he told me he was going to throw up. I LOVE to hear their giggles. So sweet. I had such a hectic morning as I was taking them to daycare (YEY, I get to take them to daycare even if only for a while!) and the kids in S4's class were playing with toys that looked like they had brought from home. I asked the teacher and sure enough today was show and tell day. Darn!! I couldn't leave S4 there with no toy to show, so I asked him which one he wanted and where it was. I went home, spent ten minutes looking for this toy. Way late for work by now. Can't find it so I grabbed some other one in the same line (Power Rangers!!). I get back in my truck and reach back to put it in the back seat when I see the toy that S4 wanted was in my truck all along......ARRGH. So I get back to daycare, bring in the toy feeling proud that I knew the name and who he was talking about and that I was able to come through and he looks at me with his big blue eyes and says "you didn't bring his sword?"......wow. So, I go back out in the truck and find not one, but TWO swords from some other toy and bring him both. He is happy. Some days being a Mom is serious business, LOL.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
