I haven't posted in a couple of days. I've been very introspective, reading a lot. I'm reading a book that many of you have probably at least heard of "Too Good to Leave, Too Bad to Stay". It has some interesting points. I also have a couple other books on the way "Emotional Blackmail" and "In Sheep's Clothing: Understanding and Dealing with Manipulative People". I'm hoping there will be some good pointers in those books on how to deal with some of H's more controlling behavior. Ultimately, I think I know what my answer is going to be, I just feel like I have to uncover all the stones first, JUST in case. I got my hormone test results back last Friday and my hormones are fine. My SIL and MIL were convinced that mine must be out of whack b/c theirs apparently are and of course they hear H's side of the story which basically says that our R depends on my mood. If I am fine, we're fine. If I am not fine, we're not fine. So, they hear that and think that I must be having severe mood swings and hormone problems. In a way, I was hoping to get negative results on the test, because that could mean that maybe my feelings aren't really my feelings afterall, but some manifestation of a biological issue. No such luck. My sister said she thinks H and I are a text book case of an abusive R. She said especially the way H places the entire weight of how our R is going on my shoulders. Heather, when you behave, our R is great. When you decide to act up, our R is not so great. Where is H's part in that cycle????? Thus my point......
More later, thanks for listening.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
