No, I definitely wouldn't be willing to revisit an R with her without notable change on her part first. There are years of failure - with me taking the blame for our troubles in her head. Not a place to which I want to return. Hence the need to give her space and time to see if this happens - while I don't sit idly by.
This next set of months will be about me moving on, not burning the bridge behind me, in a way that's beyond a last resort, and clearly a full dropping of the rope, with the goal of setting up my life well in her absence. I WILL have a full and happy life - without her if need be. This will allow me peace of mind to grow, pursue my own interests, and keep on developing my career and R with S5. I'm consulting with an A tomorrow to see how to prepare for the worst regarding custody/visitation.
I hope to go to Puerto Vallarta for work/fun in Dec. Vegas is an excellent idea, Wes. I think we should talk about that one. Heard from Bulldogr that he's in if it happens. Hmm, as long as what happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas.. Let's check in about this, okay? Any others? gabriel_j_y@yahoo.com.
Let's check in about this, okay? Any others? 
