Thanks for the wakeup call, Bruce. No, I do agree that pursuing is not going to help, after thinking about what I discovered. W is fully in MLC mode, and her travels thru that will be long.
I think what you're noticiing and that I'm feeling is that I'm getting more anxious about the sitch, and perhaps more desparate - and I'm focusing way too much on her and not enough on myself.
The external GAL stuff is going great - exercise & diet, work, outings. But in my head, I have a lot of gunk from the M problems and this rejection, and I decided today to pursue a new counselor to begin my own individual work again. Its time to dig a bit deeper into myself to see what needs to be healed further after the hurt of the R.
