Well, went out w/ W and my kids for my birthday dinner. It turned out she needed to go out of town for two nights on a business trip afterward and asked me to keep the kids. I said no problem, (But my fantasy of her asking me to stay the night at her place went right out the window, o.k., I knew it wouldn’t happen anyway.)

I was very good at staring at her intently when she was speaking to me and I kept any fixing comments to myself. At one point she checked her voice mail at dinner (something that she would have NEVER done before). She then asked me if I could program her phone for 1 touch VM and I said I didn’t know how to. I did see that the phone had at least two missed calls from OM on it though. (PS, I know she really is on business so I’m not worried about him, this time.)

Also, couple more 180s; I never approached the hostess for a table, let W do that. Didn't reach for the check, (I'm not cheap, but she did invite me.)

I thanked her cordially for dinner and complimented her. Got a quick peck on the lips before she left but it might have been more my prompting than hers.

I am more depressed now then I was before. I truly miss her and just wish this whole mess would just come to an end. It scares me when she seems so confident when I am secretly hoping that she is miserable. I know she probably is behind closed doors. I just wish I could get a better read.

Hey, at least I have got my kids for two more nights! (I can hear them arguing now!)