She has indicated that she is going to file. However, she has done so in the past and never followed through.
I have had a very bad few days and have backslid tremendously. I argued with her, yelled at her, got angry, defensive, you name it, I did it. This morning I have convinced myself to get back on track, get back to DB, Detach, and everything else. I got my kids back last night and actually slept fairly well; maybe that’s why my PMA has improved.
She actually emailed me yesterday saying that she is not blaming me, that she realizes that she walked away. She said she realized that we were great once, and hopes we can be again after divorced. This is the first time she actually took some responsibility and I am taking it as a good sign.
Even if she does file this time, I know it's not over. I am going to keep trying, and hopefully not backslide again.
Any words of encouragement would be greatly appreciated.
