Hi Betsey and Pink - Thanks for keeping this thread current, I cannot believe it has been a week already Just so much going on with NG, both our families, work, sigh. But, I think I've carved out an hour or so for me, and am looking forward to fruitful contemplation. My mind keeps going back to Betsey's post a few hours ago over at gjuggle
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G, I know your LL is physical touch. But take it from one who enjoys touching but whose LL is QT... I could (and would) go forever without initiating touch with someone if I thought they were not in love with me or themselves.

Well, this is NG to a T. He finds it impossible to initiate any contact until I show by QT or words that it is welcome. Sometimes it makes me feel like the effort is one way, but then in my saner moments I know he shows his feelings in other, more quiet or sustained ways. Things he thinks mean more. Like standing up for me, against any and every one.

Back to me ole' goals.

+ re-start my exercise routine - two sets of 15 minutes every day
I'm so pleased at being able to do this. There is more than just exercise here. Both NG and I have been on a de-tox program, and feel wonderful. Its a homeopathic deal, and seems to have cleared up long term minor niggles liked a slightly blocked noses, tightness around the lower back. So the exercise is really the starting place for a larger program of good maintenance. Yoga once a week is something we do together. Next to be tackled is aerobic capacity, which I'm woefully weak on. Just the thought makes me shudder, so I'll leave this goal as it is for now.

+ pull a mystery on NG - make him sit back and wonder a little
Well, 180s still seem to be the best. Last Sunday, I started cleaning out my make-up box. Usually I'd talk about doing something like that for weeks before actually doing it. This time I just took myself off to a quite place in the spare room and gave the darned thing an out of season spring clean. NG was full of questions as to why I was doing it, why now, etc etc Hmmm. A little one, yesterday after he came back from work I took the car down to the shops. Nothing major, but got his attention, complete with questions over dinner.

Help me guys with ideas for something more interesting?

+ keep a journal here as best I can
well, I think about dbing everyday, and visit more often than I post. I must confess to feeling like my time has been hijacked by everyone else, and goal for next week is to regain some control

More journaling. Three weeks ago NG and I had a wee bit of a row, and I asked if he was still in contact with ow, to which he responded that even if he was it was none of my business. Which he retracted later, but like a serpent, the thought is now in my mind and slithers around uncomfortably. I wonder if he was confessing to something when his guard was down? Oh what a cheeseless tunnel, but there you have it. Do these doubts ecver go away?

Slowly

A Liberal Allowance of Time