Happy Saturday everyone NG and I have declared this weekend as 'de-cluttering time' for us - our spare room, laptops and files. It means we both get lots of personal time, while being in the same room. Every now and then, we seem to need this type of time

NG continues to work from home when he is not travelling, as do I, which makes for a LOT of time together. I honestly cannot see how he could fit in another relationship given the amount of time he chooses to be right in front of me. He also talks to me a LOT about his work, sometimes in too much detail, but it is quite interesting so I'm OK with it. This is such a change from normal, in all our years together he has not really felt inclined to discuss about his work day.

However, the romance is still missing, though I'm quite content that we may just need more time. He holds me all night in bed, the ML is good, regular and intense , and so I figure the rest will follow given time. Sometimes it just feels like a long time coming . And yes, we do not talk about the affair, OW or how he now feels. Its like still too painful.

Upon reflection, I have to say, I'm happier now than I have been in more than 20 years. The worst that I thought could happen to us did, and we seem to have pulled through it. Personally, I understand myself better, and at least know where I need to put more work so I have fewer 'difficulties' - being content does seem to be a skill that can be developed.

My goals for the next couple of weeks are:

+ get stuck into the KLA CDs and workbook
+ file my application for the post grad course (still feels a bit scary, its a huge commitment, but worth it I think)
+ continue to make NG confortable that he opens up more, especially about his family

Slowly

A Liberal Allowance of Time