H2H - Your are on our side of the pond this week, how fabulous I just wish there was time to meet, NG and I are both so swamped with work its not funny Hence the posts at apparently odd times, we seem to be up all night these days.
Quote: It seems to me that NG has never really wanted to talk much about that time, and that you would like to. You've been great at marching to his rhythm, but sometimes I think you should get a chance at picking the pace . . .
You would think its time, no? Next Monday marks one year since he sent the 'termination' email to ow, and I have to say, my gentle probing indicates this is still a no-go area. I can wait - our life is progressing nicely, and one outburst which we both recovered from is not too bad. I'm happy to have all the ducks lined up, and things seem to be going to plan, with the housekeeper, the post grad course. Next is fixing some financial issues, which may be a little more tricky. These are all loose ends that make NG and I behave in a more fused manner than we should, and I'd like to slowly change all that.
Sometimes I feel like I am in a new relationship. Not because he has changed, but because I have. In a strange way, the affair seems to have made a bigger difference to me than it has to him, all he can see is the relationship, he has not, it seems, come out of this experience with much difference. He seems to be working hard to going back to what he was, while I am working hard at changing those things I did not like about me. Anyone else see this in their piecing drama?
I just wish there was time to meet, NG and I are both so swamped with work its not funny 
Hence the posts at apparently odd times, we seem to be up all night these days. 
