Hi JV - It certainly seems like an uphill struggle somedays, doesn't it? However, I see so many positives, especially in the way you are able to contain the impact of H's actions on your feelings. I feel though, there is a big elephant in your sitting room that you need to think about tackling, maybe not immediately, but sometime soon.
Quote: H would LOVE for me to work (even though he always said in the past he didn't want me to). Let me tell you one undisputed fact about my H -- he is all about money, bringing it in, and holding onto it for as long as he possibly can. I hate to say it, but I also respect him for it, but H is a serious tightwad -- yet he can play cards and risk it, but he doesn't see it that way. He's a great player, and he sees this as making money...and he does. I think he has just built up so much resentment towards me for not working....so all his hard-earned cash is being used on me, the kids, the house, the car, etc.
This can potentially colour all the other interactions and positives that you are building. How has he expressed this unhappiness - in words, deeds, implications? It just feels like a big one
In the meantime, no point dwelling on something that will not get fixed this weekend, so here's hoping you have a fabulous one
