Trying to find MY way to happiness

[ValerieA]

Thanks, (((((((Scotti))))))).

Weeeelllll......... .........I did it.

H stopped by unannounced today; he said he left his cell phone in the truck (he borrowed it last evening to pick up his new bed).

We talked for a bit. I thought he told me he was going to go to Reno this morning with a couple of his friends. He said he was but he woke up too late, but he was thinking of still going. BTW, he looked really good ....I miss him right now .

Anyway, I was finishing up my daily cleaning then H handed the baby to me. He said goodbye to the kids, looked at me for a sec, and gave me a kiss on my forehead. H started to leave, and I called his name. He stopped and asked what. It took me a few moments to muster up the words I wanted to say, but I did it.

I told H, "I've been doing a lot of thinking. God knows I've had the time.....H, I thought I could do this...but I can't....I can't handle being married but not living with my H....I'd like for you to make a decision about what you want by the end of this month please. I'm NOT saying that I WANT a divorce...I'm just saying that I don't want to be separated anymore." All H said was "ok" then slowly left.

I don't know what to think or feel right now. Well, I feel a little scared, but also a little relieved because at the end of the month, I will know....I don't know; I'll just know something.

Thanks for listening.

JV

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."