Hey there, cally! How have you been? Thanks for dropping in on me again.
Yes, there a quite a bit of positives over here. H spending more time with the kids (although it's kind of sad he couldn't do it this much before moving out), H flirting a little and needing to know my plans and whereabouts all the time. <--- This last part...not sure if that's a good thing or not. It seems like it would be because it shows H cares and is noticing more, but at the same time, I think it mostly has to do with H's own insecurity and selfishness. I get the feeling that he just doesn't want to be alone, but he doesn't want to be with me. The selfishness...he just can't see me being with any other man -- he doesn't want to see it.
I feel like my mom was right when she said I needed to stop settling for the crumbs H throws me. He only seems to do this ( be caring, flirtatious, curious) when he knows I'm having alone time or going away.
About the job issue -- read my post to Scotti, and you can see why I get defensive about it. I know it's probably not the right or best way to react, but being told I'm not pulling my own weight isn't right either. For me, it's kind of like a slap in the face because I'm trying to raise 3 little boys into being 3 mature, responsible men. I, personally, think that is tougher, and more rewarding, than any other job in this world.
Ok, it's been a busy weekend with LOTS of painting involved ! I'll be back later to do my journal entry.
JV
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown