Hi, Kim. Thanks for the visit and sharing your thoughts with me. I do appreciate it.

It DOES seem as if H is the one DBing now , but I seriously doubt he's reading anything! H isn't into reading books unless they have something to do with poker .
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It seems that you have usually taken the role of always assuming responsibility for making things better in your marriage...


H would say this was always his role, and I'd have to agree. I was the one who always held onto a grudge after a disagreement , and H was always the one to initiate a truce. Only after reading DR was when I assumed that responsibility for obvious reasons.

My, my....it sure does look like the tables have turned, doesn't it?

I did forget to mention in my journal last night that when I thanked H again for watching the kids, I gave him a hug, but I don't think H cared for it. It felt like he was only doing it because it's what I wanted. Oh well.

It's going to take me some time to figure out what I really want because I'm just not certain right now. I would like to be a family (H included), but like I've said before, I feel like I've been a single mother for so long, so what would be different if H were out of the picture? Nothing would. I know he wouldn't be completely out because of the kids, and the grandkids, etc to come in the future, but nothing would really be any different. The only thing that has changed is we don't share a bed anymore. Oh, and he says he's happier now.

I've also noticed that he hasn't been wearing his ring again, and he still hasn't picked up the new one either.

BTW, I was right -- H called about an hour ago and said he would be picking the boys up at 1pm. He said he has to go to Sacramento (gee, he sure does have to go there a lot, huh?) but didn't say what for.....hmmm.....it sounded to me like H had a LATE night again, so yes, I'm ASSuming he was still in bed when he called and is picking them up later so he can get some more sleep.

Ugh....I just feel like I've been unloved by and unimportant to my H for too long....I want to feel those feelings again....it's the time and patience thing that's killing me....again.

JV

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."

Valerie

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown

"Piecing is not for the faint of heart." ~ sage