Journaling:

Not much to report. I'm still S. Just going through a "not so sure about anything" kind of feeling right now .

I spoke with H a little this morning. He had a job to do in Fresno so the kids were home with me. It was 100 degrees today so we just hibernated in the house !

H called again around 5pm to tell me he was going to play in the weekly tournament tonight. He said he would pick the kids up tomorrow, but he didn't say at what time. Probably in the afternoon.

I was thinking about this last night and mentioned it to H today that he was welcome to stay here at the house with the kids for the weekend while I'm gone. I just figured it would be easier to let the baby sleep in his crib (H only has the 2 twin mattresses on the floor over there). I can't see how comfortable that would be for H and all 3 boys -- not to mention "safe" for the baby.

Well, when I made the suggestion, H said, "No, we'll just stay at (mf)'s. I'm getting comfortable there." I said, "Alright...I just thought (baby) would sleep better being in his crib." (The baby wakes up frequently at night when he's at my parents' or MIL's.) H said, "No. He'll be fine. I'll handle it." I said ok then we said bye.

I'm feeling a bit insecure with H's tone today. He was very distant, almost cold.... ....Like during the A days.....and also with H telling me he's "getting comfortable" at (mf)'s place......It's just a little scary.

Anyway, my sisters and I decided we're going to have a girls' night out on Saturday . Some of my nieces and nephews will be around, too, but it looks like P's H and J's H are going to be babysitting for the night ! It's alright though because they're cool like that .

So tomorrow after H picks up the boys in the afternoon (hopefully he meant the baby, too), I'm going to start enjoying myself ! I'm overdue for a trim , but I think I actually want to cut about 4 or 5 inches off! My hair is long, and H likes it like this, buuuuut...it IS MY hair, and I'm ready for a change . Nothing TOO drastic though !

It's also time for my manicure, and I think I'll get a pedicure, too, while I'm at it . I've only had one once before, and that was back in November when we went to Maui for P's wedding.

After all that....hmmmm....I think I could go for some more "therapeutic" shopping ! Hey -- gotta look and feel good for Girls' Night Out, you know!



Thanks for listening.

JV

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination."

Valerie

"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown

"Piecing is not for the faint of heart." ~ sage